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Sweet Dreams Steven...
This is another video I made for you baby....
I love you...
It's mostly pictures though but It's a calming thing to watch....

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I made a video this morning and I wanna share it with you.....
P.S. I love you Steven!!!!
Thank you for subscribing!!!!!

To my love:
The truth is the only reason I wake up is to talk to you baby!!!!
And now that I've found you I don't care what people think of me....
I only care what you think.....
I love you.....
So what do you think???

To other Newgrounders:
Who cares if you think my love for him is stupid!!!!!
You guys (who think my love for him is dumb) are stupid yourselves!!!!
You will probibly all find love yourselves too one day.....

I've kept somethings secrite but now that I'm in love....
I will not hide anymore......

The truth is I'm an emo....
Well was....
Because ever since I met my lover for life.....
I've stopped cutting my self out of depression.....
I know....
I seem happy on the outside but in side I feel dead.....
Which explains the name ''Deadtest''......
My lover has given me the life I had lost.....
He's tottally changed my life....
Now I look back and wonder,''What the hell was I thinking???''
If my love is reading this....
You've changed my life completely!!!!
And....
I thought no one would ever understand me.......
I LOVE YOU!!!!!
Are you reading????
I LOVE YOU!!!!!
And I wanna live with you forever!!!!!

I got a text this morning from him and he still loves me!!!!!!
I was afraid that he hated me now for getting him grounded........
BUT HE STILL LOVES ME!!!!!!!
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
If you get the chance to read this my lover......
I will always love you......
Til' death do us part!!!!!
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
And to all the people out there....
This IS MY REAL PICTURE!!!!!!
PEOPLE THINK I'M A NERD THOUGH......
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

I can't belive it.....
Ya know about my lover.....
Right????
Well his mom apparently must have caught us talking last night on the computer.....
And I tryed calling him today and his ma said I can't talk to him any more......
She found out and I couldn't breathe after I hung up......
I can't belive I got him in trouble......

Steven....
If your out there....
And if your reading this.....
I love you and I never meant for you to get hurt.......
I can understand if you hate me now........
I just love you with all my heart and.....
I feel like an asshole for getting you in trouble.......
And 99.9% of the reason I feel like an asshole is because I said I would never let you get hurt and that I would never hurt you.......
And I got you in trouble for my feelings for you..........
I'm sorry......

Last night I was talking to my best friend on the phone for an hour (again).......
And that night I realized that....
I've found true love....
I didn't know what to say most of the time but I told him my friend said she could never lose me by the size of my eyes.....
And he told me they were beautiful and ya know stuff like that......
He said that he could see whatever he wants to see in my eyes.....
I asked him what he saw and......
He said he saw me and him together and 4 children....
And I was like.....
All I could really say was the word,''Wow.....''

So if the guy I love is reading this.....
I just want you to know that I love you and I charish our hour long conversations and.......
This sounds kinda desperate but......
If we were older (mostly me).....
Would you marry me????

PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME!!!!!
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME!!!!
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It's such an awesome day to day because....
It's my boyfriend's and I's MONTH-AVERSERY!!!!!!
I'm sooo weird....
Lol!!!!
I would love him no matter what we are!!!!
Which one do ya think is me????

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I can't wait til' I get to school!!!!!!!!
Then I can see my boyfriend!!!!!!
I think we're really getting soooo closer together!!!!!!
So here's a song that makes me think of him.....
This has lyrics and pretty pictures!!!!!